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i'm a total coffee addict. a hypomanic who runs and flips wild in the wards. has to constantly check on my schedule not because i forget things, but because i just obsessive-compulsively do so. i love singing and dancing so much, i just love having fun. and don't mess around with animals when i'm around, unless you want to be scalpeled down to your bones (just kiddin').

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Monday, February 20, 2006

This is the worst day of my life.

posted @ 8:54 PM

Saturday, February 18, 2006
Just Before I Plunge Into Finals

Wow, the fourth shifting exams is over! Just like that. The week flew by so fast I just realized that it's Saturday again, and that I have to get ready for finals on Monday. But where do they expect me to get my strength back? I guess I won't study for this finals. I'll just let it take it's own swing. This is not a sign of giving up, very far from it. It's just being realistic. How do they expect me to review everything from the start? Read Harrison and Schwartz cover to cover? Hello?! Maybe I'll study for medical therapeutics, but that would be it. Just what we've learned in the past, it's better to take the exams with full mental faculty and a well-rested body and mind than with a wasted brain and total lack of sleep.

So I had a relaxing morning today, I watched 3 classic movies. I just discovered that I have a TCM on my cable. Cool! Now I could watch classic movies whenever I want. Anyway, I watched Bachelor in Paradise, Harvey Girls (Judie Gardland is really great), and Fame. The latter is a complete musical. Nonstop singing and dancing. Made me remember my dancing years. It also made me wonder about some "what ifs." But it's kinda useless to really lament on it. What's lost can't be regained. I've lost good long years and it's impossible to go back. Besides, those memories just make me sad, but it doesn't mean that I'll trade what I am right now to what I could have been before.

-oOo-

And so I've toiled over the exams this past week. I drank a lot of coffee that I noticed last Thursday that my skin had gone really dry. As in it's mildly peeling. However, this was not so surprising, especially when I checked the contents of my drawer...

Maybe you're wondering why I keep all of my used coffee sachets in my drawer. I also don't know. Maybe to constantly remind myself that I'm overstretching my caffeine limits. Weird.

Anyway, there were several moments during my long reviews that I got bored, or just went blank, just what the computer monitor does to save power, or completely doze off to sleep (despite all efforts to stay up).

This is my study nook...I don't use my study table because the space is not enough.

I stopped studying on my bed, it's proven dangerous and narcolepsis-inducing habit.

I just love my jumbo snooze pillow. It keeps me comfy while studying. I had this

small table custom-made, it's height is just right and helps me maintain my posture.

another empty cup of coffee. this cup is one of my collection.

yup, i know this is pretty hazardous to my safety. my wall of books seems to be falling upon me.

posted @ 12:50 PM

Saturday, February 11, 2006
Random thoughts

I should be breaking my back and have an IV line placed on me for convenient continuous infusion of caffeine right now for shifting exams. As always, I'm battling against procastination. I don't know but I just can't concentrate, a lot of things are circling inside my head. Hmmm...maybe I should have not accepted any compromise. Things would be better if only I've listened to my heart and stood up to what is right. But I've blown it and got to wait for another chance to choose the path that would lead me to my happiness. Well, that's what I get from having a soft heart and a brittle wall of defenses.

-oOo-

Anyway, I've been trying to raise some money to buy new stuff for clerkship. I'm selling medical baby notes to my classmates. I got this idea from Stuart Little and it was supported by my bestfriend Rhen, so there.

-oOo-

We had our grad pics taken 2 weeks ago. I was really excited about it. Unfortunately, I was not satisfied with my makeup, my eyes looked more squinted (it has a natural squint, especially when I'm smiling). However, I had a fun time choosing my attire for creative shot. I decided to be a cowgirl...

Unfortunately, I looked like a Japayuki instead.

-0Oo-

My mom gave me an advanced Valentines gift. I was really delighted to receive another stuff toy. His name is Pong Pagong cause he really looks like that giant turtle from Batibot.