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About Me
- Name: maan
- Location: Philippines
i'm a total coffee addict. a hypomanic who runs and flips wild in the wards. has to constantly check on my schedule not because i forget things, but because i just obsessive-compulsively do so. i love singing and dancing so much, i just love having fun. and don't mess around with animals when i'm around, unless you want to be scalpeled down to your bones (just kiddin').
- doc Karlito
- doc NRQ
- doc Margie
- doc Jannah
- doc Nina
- atty Dyanis
- Kyx Babzy
- Buboy
- Mike Velarde
- Raf
- Ayma
- Odezza
- UP Biochemistry Batch 2002
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Officially an MD
It was not an easy ride. Well, I guess nobody would every say otherwise. Like most doctors who took the licensure exam, it must have been also one of the most important and the most challenging moments of my life. But unlike most of them, it was difficult and nerve wrecking for me not only because it would give me the right to practice, to be officially called a "doctor," or because I don't want to be the talk of the town as the "the one" who didn't make it, but because it weighed down on me as a real life-or-death situation. My life and my mom's life depend on it tremendously that there really was no room for failure. And I'm so glad and thankful thhat God is really good...He was with me all the way. He gave me a job to somehow sustain my family's needs while I'm reviewing for the boards (thanks Glenn), sent angels who generously lent their books, samplex, and reviewers (thanks a lot Karl and Mac), friends who continuously cheered for me through text and emails, a crazy friend like Chrissie who welcomed me in her apartment so I wouldn't have to come from Las Pinas early in the morning for the exams (also thanks for the coffee and the sounds!), and a loving boyfriend who's always been with me to cheer me on (muwahugs baby!).
I also had series of panic attacks. In fact, I really thought of not appearing on the exam date because I felt that I wasn't really prepared. I just took a leave from work only a week prior to the exam and that was the only time that I started madly flipping through everything! To make things worse, I was also having a PMS (premenstrual syndrome) days before the exam so I wasted about 2 days lying on bed, feeling nauseated and stressed.
When I arrived at Chrissie's apartment, we were in an elated mood. We were optimistic that we'll really be doctors in 2 weeks. We were boosting our confidence by recalling some people who were struggling through med school but still were able to pass the boards in one take. That was mean, I know. Anyway, I was kinda suprised because it seemed that I was the only one who was not familiar with some "good luck charms" for the boards. Chrissie dragged me to Red Ribbon to buy some empanada. Another one is wearing anything red. I was laughing at Chrissie when she wore all her red undies. I thought it was weird.
The feeling that I wasn't really prepared for the exams grew stronger on the first day when I arrived at the College of Holy Spirit. I was carrying 3 reviewers and discreetly reading some notes when I noticed that nobody was carrying any reviewer, people looked confident in their white coats, smiling and greeting each other, as if it's just an ordinary day at the campus! And most people were in red. I thought it was just one of Chrissie's wild ideas but I was proven wrong. There was even a lady who wore a red top matched with red open toe shoes revealing her red pedicure. And the magic empanada! Yes, it was indeed the official lucky charm that only I don't know about. Some people even brought boxes of it. Now I felt that my fighting chance for the passing the boards was starting to diminish. I was not in red and I don't have empanada. And I thought that it was only for the first day of exams. People continued wearing their red apparel and munching empanadas till the last day of exams.
The difficult moment while taking the boards exams was not really during the exam proper...it was during the 10 to 15 minutes of silence and apprehension while sitting and waiting for our exams to be distributed. It was during these moments that I had flashbacks of my years in med school, images of me sitting in the classroom chatting with my seatmates while the professor was yanking about a particular disease that I hope somehow made its way to my neurons somewhere in my brain. It was also during these tensed moments that I got images of me and my dad, and suddenly my eyes got misty with tears. The first subject was Biochemistry. I managed to have one round of reading on it. I was praying so hard that it would suffice...I was relying on luck and on 4 years of biochemistry lectures in college.
I almost fainted during the first day because of starvation. I thought crackers would be enough to last me for the whole day. Good thing Chrissie shared with me some of her empanadas. Now I believed it was really the "lucky empanada" otherwise I'll be losing consciousness on my exam day. So on the succeeding days I brought with me some power chocolate bars (courtesy of Marky) and some canned coffee. Important tip for the future examinees: Load up!
For me, Anatomy was the worst. I felt really bad about it because I spent more time on it compared to other subjects. It made me feel like I didn't study at all. And Kandi and I were laughing at some items which focused on the physiological basis of arousal in men, like the erection and ejaculation. I think I was able to answer those questions not mainly based on Snell textbook but on some issues of FHM and Cosmo.
After the boards, I completely withdrew myself from the world. This was the time for deep contemplation and sleep. I rarely get up from bed. I found comfort under my blanket. I only get up at night to eat and take a bath. And then I go to hibernation again. The thought that the exam results would be unfavorable was so unberable that I'd rather sleep again. That anatomy exam...grrr...
But God works in mysterious ways...I passed. And so were all my friends who took the board exams. We were blessed.
posted @ 7:12 AM
Officially an MD
It was not an easy ride. Well, I guess nobody would every say otherwise. Like most doctors who took the licensure exam, it must have been also one of the most important and the most challenging moments of my life. But unlike most of them, it was difficult and nerve wrecking for me not only because it would give me the right to practice, to be officially called a "doctor," or because I don't want to be the talk of the town as the "the one" who didn't make it, but because it weighed down on me as a real life-or-death situation. My life and my mom's life depend on it tremendously that there really was no room for failure. And I'm so glad and thankful thhat God is really good...He was with me all the way. He gave me a job to somehow sustain my family's needs while I'm reviewing for the boards (thanks Glenn), sent angels who generously lent their books, samplex, and reviewers (thanks a lot Karl and Mac), friends who continuously cheered for me through text and emails, a crazy friend like Chrissie who welcomed me in her apartment so I wouldn't have to come from Las Pinas early in the morning for the exams (also thanks for the coffee and the sounds!), and a loving boyfriend who's always been with me to cheer me on (muwahugs baby!).I also had series of panic attacks. In fact, I really thought of not appearing on the exam date because I felt that I wasn't really prepared. I just took a leave from work only a week prior to the exam and that was the only time that I started madly flipping through everything! To make things worse, I was also having a PMS (premenstrual syndrome) days before the exam so I wasted about 2 days lying on bed, feeling nauseated and stressed.
When I arrived at Chrissie's apartment, we were in an elated mood. We were optimistic that we'll really be doctors in 2 weeks. We were boosting our confidence by recalling some people who were struggling through med school but still were able to pass the boards in one take. That was mean, I know. Anyway, I was kinda suprised because it seemed that I was the only one who was not familiar with some "good luck charms" for the boards. Chrissie dragged me to Red Ribbon to buy some empanada. Another one is wearing anything red. I was laughing at Chrissie when she wore all her red undies. I thought it was weird.
The feeling that I wasn't really prepared for the exams grew stronger on the first day when I arrived at the College of Holy Spirit. I was carrying 3 reviewers and discreetly reading some notes when I noticed that nobody was carrying any reviewer, people looked confident in their white coats, smiling and greeting each other, as if it's just an ordinary day at the campus! And most people were in red. I thought it was just one of Chrissie's wild ideas but I was proven wrong. There was even a lady who wore a red top matched with red open toe shoes revealing her red pedicure. And the magic empanada! Yes, it was indeed the official lucky charm that only I don't know about. Some people even brought boxes of it. Now I felt that my fighting chance for the passing the boards was starting to diminish. I was not in red and I don't have empanada. And I thought that it was only for the first day of exams. People continued wearing their red apparel and munching empanadas till the last day of exams.
The difficult moment while taking the boards exams was not really during the exam proper...it was during the 10 to 15 minutes of silence and apprehension while sitting and waiting for our exams to be distributed. It was during these moments that I had flashbacks of my years in med school, images of me sitting in the classroom chatting with my seatmates while the professor was yanking about a particular disease that I hope somehow made its way to my neurons somewhere in my brain. It was also during these tensed moments that I got images of me and my dad, and suddenly my eyes got misty with tears. The first subject was Biochemistry. I managed to have one round of reading on it. I was praying so hard that it would suffice...I was relying on luck and on 4 years of biochemistry lectures in college.
I almost fainted during the first day because of starvation. I thought crackers would be enough to last me for the whole day. Good thing Chrissie shared with me some of her empanadas. Now I believed it was really the "lucky empanada" otherwise I'll be losing consciousness on my exam day. So on the succeeding days I brought with me some power chocolate bars (courtesy of Marky) and some canned coffee. Important tip for the future examinees: Load up!
For me, Anatomy was the worst. I felt really bad about it because I spent more time on it compared to other subjects. It made me feel like I didn't study at all. And Kandi and I were laughing at some items which focused on the physiological basis of arousal in men, like the erection and ejaculation. I think I was able to answer those questions not mainly based on Snell textbook but on some issues of FHM and Cosmo.
After the boards, I completely withdrew myself from the world. This was the time for deep contemplation and sleep. I rarely get up from bed. I found comfort under my blanket. I only get up at night to eat and take a bath. And then I go to hibernation again. The thought that the exam results would be unfavorable was so unberable that I'd rather sleep again. That anatomy exam...grrr...
But God works in mysterious ways...I passed. And so were all my friends who took the board exams. We were blessed.
posted @ 7:12 AM
My Favorite Things
Coffee!
Yummy chocolates...
Bags!
Classic Movies
My vanity table
Books books and more books!
Music...
Collectible Miniatures
My fave doll of all times...
Pennylane Alexandria Ianne
Charms and Beads
Letters and Memorabilia
My reliable organizer
My comfy study pillow and mini table
Embroidery stuff
Travelling Down the Memory Lane...
Little Maan
Highschool Blues
UP Pips
PLM College of Medicine
My Porcelain Doll Collection
